Blogger’s block…

Here I am stalled at the intersection of angst and apathy. So much to do, and no drive to get to it all. So much to say, and yet no words to express it. So many songs to listen to, but they all feel sad today.

A couple days ago I was going to post on how amazing it was to be called to get up and sing at church again. Several years ago I helped the youth pastor at my church start the music part of “contemporary worship.” Through the years more folks came to participate… especially youth–which is great! Slowly I pulled out of it. I figured, I have already had my years behind the microphone, time for a new generation! But, this Sunday, all the youth were out of town and I was called to come play and sing. I had a cold most of the week and barely had a voice. But I stepped up there, plugged in my guitar, and opened my mouth to the mic… and like a miracle… my voice came pouring out over the speakers. It felt so good! The congregation smiled at me, and I felt like myself for a short while. I think I was born to have a guitar in my hands and a mic in front of me (I have since I was 10)… my passion! But then, at another intersection in my life… I got sidetracked by my “calling.” Still, it was nice to be “called” if only for one day back to singing…

Even a simple little “personality” sorter for me still shows “musical” to be the biggest part of me. Maybe I’ll pick up my guitar again later today and get myself movin’ in the right direction! For now, it’s off to the office… but… I do have one of my guitars there… “to be continued”…